| | hey everybody whats going on? nm here.....just living life and hopin it
gets better. i guess its not too bad but every time anyone says
anything i think of seth.........god i miss him!!! i miss him so
much!!! why?!?! that was my brother why did he have to go? oh god!!!!
life doesnt even seem worth it.....the only thing keeping me alive is
knowing that that would kill my family....b/c they
love me and dont need to deal with another death....and the fact that my Baby loves me and will
be here soon! i miss him sooo much and love him even more!!!!
i dont mean to sound all sad and depressed.........sorry......i just
wish that it wasnt something thats always on my mind!!!! it kills me to
no end to think i didnt call him as much as i wanted to and i didnt
tell him i lvoed him enough!!! i swear if i love someone i will never
ever get off that phone or walk away w/o saying i love you cuz you
never know when they're gonna or you're gonna die. its not a happy
thing to think about but i do cuz its always here.....in my head.
listen to me i sound like a freakin stupid human being!!! like thats
unusual! those of you who have no idea what its like to lose someone
who you were just starting to get to know.....be careful but dont waste
time in getting to know them.....if you love someone then make sure
they know!!!!! god i wish i...........couldve said more to seth! it
kills me!! i love my bro!! my wangsta!!! hehe (remember britt?) silly
ole seth always trying to make ppl smile and laugh! he was a good man!!
he changed sooo much! in a good way........and im sorry for those of
you who never had the privilege of meeting or knowing him better!!
america's finest!! thats what he was! he will never know how many pplz
lives he touched and influenced! just like most of us will never know
the impact he had or any of us have/had on anybody!
ya know i wrote a pretty mean letter to some of you and i just wanted
to publicly apologize........i dont know that i ever actually
apologized to any of you......please except this apology!! im sorry! im
sorry for what i said--i dont even remember what i said anymore i just
know that it was probly not the nicest things!
oh god! isaiah..........i love him so much!! my big lil brother! hehe!
go the right way....you KNOW which way that is! be careful in the
choices you make........be good and most of all love and respect your
parents!! they love you soooo much just as the rest of us do! well....i
guess i should stop crying and get to work! w/e life's too short!!
so.....eat dessert first! as my dad always says! love you all!!! ttyl!
byez!
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